Smile.....

...... and the World smiles with you - there's never been a truer sentence spoken or more to the point sometimes the World just makes you smile, today it's certainly made me smile because it's been filled with pure innocence and utter beauty. I didn't witness it first hand but I know it's the truth, I just know.........

Another Bank Holiday Monday found me back at work, somethings never change in that respect, meanwhile my baby has enjoyed a long weekend - he's been off today and has only got a short working week of four days before he's off again. Which is kind of handy, well awesomely perfect truth be told because I'm off again this weekend too, happy days boys and girls; only four days to go, four days of early shifts for me, so we should be together every night this week and all weekend to boot. But if there was any consolation of having to get up early this morning to go to work leaving my baby asleep in bed and leaving him for the remainder of the day it was just the fact that I could witness him asleep in bed. I appreciate I've mentioned this on at least one other occasion but it's worth mentioning again; he is just so beautiful whilst he's asleep, oh my gosh - so cute, so fragile and like an image of absolute purity. I kid you not, I've never seen another guy look like that whilst asleep ever, in fact I've never seen anyone or anything that looks like that whilst asleep period. It crushes my heart each and every time; there's so much beauty that lights up the bedroom and I look upon him in silence, I study my baby and I get lost in the moment. He's beautiful - my beautiful, sleep head baby, I love you so much, you've no idea how absolutely gorgeous you are, even when you're asleep you are nothing but gorgeous, sexy and cute xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox.

My day was a usual Bank Holiday Monday, it felt like a Sunday, just in the tone and nature of the day and they normally tend to me throw me some because I do kind of lose a day in my mind; I do think the Monday is the Sunday, the Tuesday is the Monday and so on but today I didn't. Perhaps it's because I'd just had the weekend off so it was clear in my mind, today is Monday - a non eventful Bank Holiday; and then the World just kind of lit up. I was texting my baby over breakfast, just sending mostly silly texts back and to; and mostly concerning how utterly gorgeous he looks whilst he's asleep. That and the cold, dear me it was so cold today, the wind seriously cut through you; I warned my baby to wrap up real warm when he was ready to head out. He texted back to tell me he already knew it was cold outside because he'd done some washing and had hung it out; he's such a sweetheart, I didn't ask him to do any washing or anything but he did it anyway - he told me he had to use all the pegs to prevent the washing from blowing away in the wind, bless him. Our text exchange was interrupted by my Mum phoning me, my folks were heading out for the day to Fleetwood, to do a bit of shopping and to get some sea air and she sounded so enthused by the prospect. It illuminated me, to get some sea air, it just kind of made a connection deep inside; I absolutely adore British coast resorts out of season, there's just something so melancholic about them - the cold, the grey, the damp and the emptiness; I appreciate it all sounds real sad and not much fun but it does speak to me. And to stand on a windswept, deserted promenade with the wind and sea spray pummelling your face whilst watching the sea crash onto the shore; it just engages all my senses at once, I guess it makes me feel so close to nature, oh man, all that sea air...........

My baby and I have been talking about this this evening; it's something I miss even though it's rare I get to experience it barring when I head out to see the folks, so it's never at the forefront of my thoughts but when something triggers it. My baby he just sat and listened to me as I went on to some tune about it; gosh I do get very lyrical and poetic over such things and I take it for granted that everyone feels the same kind of connection or can see the arresting beauty within the apparent melancholy. I don't expect everyone to think in the same terms but surely because it's so vivid in my soul then it must affect everyone who's been touched by it - it's not. My baby told me I was beautiful after I'd finished, I thought his silence meant he didn't really grasp the interest but it did, he just didn't want to speak or ruin the moment. I just take it for granted that because I feel something so strong even if it is very subtle then we all must feel it, I guess I'm wrong; my baby said, as he's said many times before, I'm sensitive and it's a special gift; and it's special for him to be around someone like that, someone like me. My baby's just reiterated this fact so who am I to say any different, particularly when reiteration comes with kisses and cuddles..........

My baby's day was already planned he was taking his Mum for a walk around the shops and for lunch in Wilmslow; we talked about it last night and once again it just struck me right in the heart. It's just so sweet, my baby taking his Mum shopping and for lunch, it lights up my soul; just the unconditional love between Mother and Son; and just doing it for no other reason than because. Because my baby loves his Mum and because it's not everyday they get to spend some quality time together; besides my baby loves shopping. I guess once again it's the beauty in the unspoken detail, its silence speaks to me in volumes, whilst talking about it last night it just blew me away; I was just so happy for my baby to be able to look forward to something like it and that he gained so much joy from the prospect. I finished my text exchange with my baby by wishing him a great day and sending him enough kisses and cuddles to last until I saw him again before I headed back to work.

Come lunch time, I found my baby had texted me to say they were having a fantastic day and he wished that I was with them. They'd taken lunch in a coffee shop called Rise and sat over freshly made sandwiches, coffee and scones; it sounded perfect, I texted my baby back and pleaded with him to tell me they had a window seat. My baby knows my love of window seats, whenever we go out for a meal or have lunch whilst we're out and about I always try and get a table by the window because I love people watching. Some of the best times we spend together are those spent chatting over coffee whilst looking out onto the World; the very best times are those spent doing it on a rainy day in Manchester. Sat warm and dry with a hot coffee whilst looking out onto the grey, rainy streets; oh my gosh it's poetry, pure poetry. My baby texted back shortly afterwards, they had a window seat, he thought of me and got a window seat; I sat there and smiled..........

Just before heading home my Mum phoned again, if she was enthused at the prospect of her day out then it lived up to and beyond expectation. As she was telling me about her day I could hear the sunshine in her voice, she sounded so happy and so pleased with the day - they'd been to Fleetwood, onwards to Freeport and then into Blackpool. They'd bought stuff in the Marks & Spencer outlet, the Regatta outlet, met friends along the way and all took lunch together in Uncle Toms Cabin. It was the happiness that struck me, it blew me away; it sounded like such a wonderful day - a day that had promised much and delivered even more. A day that just got better for me when I got home because my baby was waiting for me with a smile, a kiss and a cuddle. I got washed and changed before sitting down with my baby over coffee whilst he told me about his day; there was sunshine and happiness in his voice too, and a smile to match.

I'd not been anywhere apart from work and I'd not done anything as exciting as those that had touched me today but they touched me all the same. They touched me with their happiness and touched me with their love for thinking of me, sharing their days with me and ultimately making me a part of their day. My baby was not alone whilst he was smiling, it's been a desperately beautiful day, a day the World smiled with us all..........