Scream

Today of all days it should have been a day of winding down, slipping out of work mode and slipping into weekend off with my cute and sexy boyfriend mode; the passing of one phase into another, of thoughts of my baby, me, sunshine and lots of time to spend together. It's no secret we've been looking forward to this weekend, it's pretty much been in all our posts during this week and just when you get to the finishing line, and think you're home and dry, you get a day that didn't go as intended.

It was another beautiful day weather wise, absolutely awesome, a day to be out and about, to be daydreaming of my baby under the warmth of the sun. Instead my day was stupidly busy, and I mean stupidly so - just as I'm in wind down mode the whole World and his dog wants something from me. I kid you not, I hardly had a minute to myself all day, I hardly got anytime to go out and enjoy the sunshine, and most importantly I missed my baby's texts and phone calls. That upset me the most, it hurt, I adore our little text exchanges and phone calls through the day and over lunch and break times but my day was so messed up that I pretty much missed them all; and I did miss them, I missed them so much and I missed my baby so much as a result.

I went out for lunch today with girlfriend and H - even that was way later than planned, we should have gone out at 1.30 but we eventually got out at 2.15; that's how bad it was. I was in such a rush that I forgot my phone and I so needed to speak to or text my baby that well, I really wasn't on the best form ever over lunch. It was wonderful to see girlfriend and H, and spend some time with them - girlfriend even paid for lunch, how rich is she? Or was until she paid for lunch! But it couldn't save my day, I was a bit distant and irksome regardless, I think it may showed some, I don't know? I mean work comes in between my baby and I a great deal already, it's been four weeks since we've enjoyed a weekend off together, but it's a bit much when I can't find five or ten minutes in my day to speak to him or exchange texts; it did upset me. I got back to my office after lunch and my baby had called, he'd texted and left a beautiful voicemail - he'd been out for lunch enjoying the sunshine and I could hear the sunshine in his voice, no joke; even if I had no idea what the weather was like, I could just tell his part of the World was sunny. It's amazing what some good weather can do, and my baby was having a much better day than I was, and he was counting down the hours and minutes until home time. It cheered me up and pissed me off all at the same time - it was so comforting to hear my baby's voice and know he was having a great day but I should have been there to speak to him, to share that moment because that moment had, by that time, gone.

Anyway, it's over now and my baby is on his way to me; there's only good times ahead boys and girls, I've been through the wringer some today but it's been worth it just to get to this point - waiting for my baby and waiting for the weekend to begin. There's beers cooling in the fridge and I just want to kick back, relax into my baby's arms and forget everything; tomorrows a new day with a new set of happy memories just waiting to be made, it's a wonderful thought and it's come just at the right time. I just want to feel like a normal couple again, as two guys in love should do - spending some quality time together without anything else getting in the way; it's been a long time coming and sometimes the frustration just makes me want to scream. Right now though there's only one thing I want to scream and if I scream loudly enough I think my baby might just here me, it can't come quickly enough.........