Only one

I wrote last night about how true friends remain by your side regardless, it was nothing but the truth because it has been proven. Girlfriend texted me last night just to make sure I was okay; I guess with the tears and the sadness from earlier in the day, she wanted to be sure I felt better. It was such a kind and sweet gesture, and just so pure; I mean it should have been me being strong for her, after all she was the one encountering the rough end of the stick but no. I was the one that needed comforting and needed to have my tears dried; it's nothing new boys and girls - I do get emotional and I do cry a great deal but it's usually my baby that helps dry my tears. I need friends around me who are not only strong enough to support me through my times of need but are also gentle enough to not upset me further; and I am truly blessed because I have many. My boyfriend and my girlfriend well, they're with me most of the time and they're often the ones I look to during both the good and the not so good times - thankfully we encounter mostly good times! But still, it blows me away and I never take such times for granted, never..........

My baby cheered me up last night and continued to do so today; throughout the day he phoned and texted me, once again ensuring that I was okay; and it was a strange day but to hear my baby's voice and read his kind, caring, loving words - they made all the difference. It was a comfort and he told me to phone or text him for whatever reason, if there was anything on my mind and I needed to talk about it he would listen - as he always does; and I'm crying now just thinking about it as I did when he told me. Oh gosh, please excuse me a minute. I'm just so cared for and loved, I don't know what it means, honestly I don't understand how when you meet someone new it ends up a year or so down the line like this, how we are in the here and the now. I'm not trying to analyse it, it's just that, something just clicks into place I guess and you find a beautiful boyfriend or a gorgeous girlfriend there, always there; my brain fails to grasp that notion, it always has done. You know I just take the people I truly love at face value, I don't look beyond what I see because if they're true then there's nothing to see beyond, it's all there looking back at me; and I just see that every time when I look at my baby (I can't say that for girlfriend because it's a different kind of love.) Perhaps that's the notion I fail to comprehend, because it is so simple and obvious, because it's literally staring me in the face, maybe that's how I fall in love, it probably is. Whatever, it's a beautiful feeling both whenever we're together but more importantly when I'm looking forward to being with my baby, be it whilst at work or when we've been apart a night or two - the thought of being with him just sends shivers down my spine. And my baby's making me cry again, I'm not going to share what he just said but it was just so touching; man I'm so emotional tonight.

Girlfriend visited today during lunch, it was a fleeting visit unfortunately but it was just so good to see her; less than 24 hours since we last saw each other admittedly but way long enough time apart. I miss her, I can't help that and I'm not ashamed to admit it - my baby's said on many occasions to miss someone is a another way of saying you love them; he speaks so much truth because it's nothing but the truth. Talking of which, girlfriend left such a beautiful comment on last nights post which touched not only me but my baby as well - my baby loves to hear others speak of me in the same fashion as he does; which is something I do understand, my heart sings whenever I hear any of my baby's friends speak of him in a similar fashion. But there was something wrong with girlfriends comment last night and I cannot let it pass without correcting it. You see she referred to herself as my No1 girlfriend and that's so untrue, it's way off the mark because whilst she's a part of my life there is no number one girlfriend, there's only girlfriend, my girlfriend - the only girlfriend this gay-boy will ever need.

I wrote you a poem earlier tonight girlfriend, it's called Ghosts, it's on my other blog - Blinded By Nothingness, I hope you don't mind and I hope you like it. I'm happy, I love my girlfriend and I love my boyfriend; my life is blessed. Goodnight, with love xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox.