Three words.........

I've had a great day at work today boys and girls but it really had nothing to do with work, in fact it had everything to do with someone who wasn't with me, well not physically anyway, but he was with me in spirit and in my thoughts all day long - I'm talking about my baby; my beautiful, my sexy, my cute boyfriend. Until meeting him I never thought it was possible to love someone so much, but it is possible and it's beautiful and life affirming. He makes me so gay, and I'm not talking about our sexual antics here, I'm talking about how he makes me feel inside - so loved, so cared for and so cherished but more pointedly how he lets me smother him with love; pure, sickly sweet, hopelessly romantic love. That's me when I'm in love, it's the real me, it's how I communicate my love - so openly, so honestly and so soppily; if we're together it's the kisses, the cuddles, the tender words and moments shared. It's difficult to find a guy that appreciates and enjoys being loved so much and who reciprocates such love in a gay relationship, well I've found it difficult anyway, it's left me blunted in the past - lost and confused. And here's where your illusions get shattered because love is way more important than sex - my baby and I wouldn't enjoy sex so much if it wasn't for the love we share; and it's no irony either, sure we have lots of sex but it's only a reflection of our love for each other, we love each other very much.

But when we're apart all we have to share are the tender words and that's exactly what we've done all day today. I started as soon as I got into work, I sent my baby such a hopelessly romantic text message wishing him a good day and telling him exactly how much I loved him because he was so heavy in my thoughts. It set me up for the day, it left me feeling all fuzzy and warm inside and just so in love - it was in the way I walked and the way I talked, it infiltrated my whole being; such a wonderful feeling. Over the course of the day and the course of our breaks at work we read and replied to each other; and it just kept me on a high throughout right up until my final break by which time my baby was heading home to his flat - work keeps us apart tonight with me being on late shifts. I headed back into my office and just gazed at the photo of my baby on the wall whilst thinking about the texts we'd just exchanged; he's just so beautiful and even though I didn't need a reminder he was there looking back at me. I texted him again to tell him just that - that I'd been gazing at his photo and that he was beautiful, I couldn't help myself besides it was nothing but the truth.

Hence why I'm late posting tonight, I've spoken to my baby for so long on the phone, we didn't have a great deal to say admittedly because we've only been apart just over twelve hours or so but still we talked for so long. But through everything, three words kept on reoccurring; through every text message and on numerous occasions throughout our telephone call the same three words. Three little words that mean nothing on there own but when you put them together and in the right order, well they mean everything...........