Safe

We had a great night last night boys and girls, in fact it was better than great, Tom blew us both away, seriously. As I said it's the first time either of us have seen him live, I love him and my baby well he just appreciated the music without going overboard about him. But all that has changed, my baby is now a converted bona fide fan and he thanked me so much last night - I got lots of kisses and cuddles, even more than normal and I'm officially the best boyfriend in the World. To say that makes me feel on top of the World is an understatement, all I ever want is to make my baby as happy as he makes me, I think I've achieved that. It was wondrous, to know my baby loved the gig as much as I did; I mean he just came along because I wanted to go, he'd never heard of Tom before we met but to just see him enjoying himself so much and to see him lost in the music and the moment, it filled my heart with love. I guess it made it all the more special for the both of us because it was such a surprise, I didn't expect my baby to truly enjoy it and truth be told he didn't either; but he went with an open mind and got it blown away.

It hindsight it shouldn't have been a surprise because it was an awe inspiring gig, we've never seen or felt so much love, pain, hope and grief through music before - his albums are one thing but the live performance is just something else completely. It was like watching a movie, the full range of human emotions worn on the sleeve for all to see; and you couldn't help but be transfixed by the performance. I kid you not it left us breathless, we were stood holding hands in complete silence and stillness, lost within the music and the lyrics of a little known guy called Tom McRae. There were times when it literally reduced me to tears, honestly, I could feel the tears welling up in my eyes and I had to grasp my baby's hand real hard to help me through - my baby gave me a hug and a kiss at various stages and asked if I was okay. I guess the live performance of the songs I know so well just touched a nerve, they're full of emotion and rawness anyway, but live the songs just wrap you up in their melancholy and world weariness and tear your heart to shreds. Not that they're real sad songs or even depressing but they just reflect the World we live in and even in the darkest of songs there always shines a glimmer of hope; the thing is you can relate to the stories being told within the songs, that's the key and that's what I and now my baby can identify with. It's not radio friendly pop music for the masses but it is genuine, heartfelt and utterly spellbinding.

And it was just great to spend a night out with my baby, it's been a long time coming, how I've missed walking hand in hand with my baby through the streets, spending time together out and about, having a drink, a laugh, a kiss and a cuddle. We would have enjoyed the night anyway regardless of how good the gig was, in the end it was the icing on the cake; because that's what means the most to me - it's being able to go out and hold my baby's hand wherever we go and show the World that this is my boyfriend, he makes me so proud and I love him to bits. I told my baby that last night whilst we were walking home from the bus stop, despite it being so twee and kind of slushy I couldn't keep the thoughts to myself. Besides my baby encourages me to tell him everything so I do, we were walking along side by side and I just kind of let it slip out when I told him. My baby pulled my hand back to stop me and turned to face me before asking me to repeat what I'd just said - it made him smile so much, he told me I'm beautiful and he kissed me; I just remember the look in his eyes - so soft, so inviting, so in love, man he's got the most beautiful eyes...........

This is perhaps my favourite Tom McRae song and certainly the best performance of it I've seen, complete with a full orchestra - it just suits the song so much. I've been singing it all day today whilst thinking of my baby; there's a particular lyric that just makes me think of him. It goes, I'm safe inside a better World of hope and memory; I'm always safe inside a better World when I'm with my baby - with him there is always hope and together we make such beautiful memories. Deal the cards and hope that I can play the same hand next time................

I love you boyfriend xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox.