Round and round

I'm posting early tonight boys and girls because if I post later, well it's just going to follow the same path that many of my previous posts have; that and the fact that this keeps my mind occupied - trust me my mind needs occupying. If you've not guessed my baby is due around shortly, we're back together after two nights of enforced separation and it's strange. You see the two nights we've spent apart, I was already aware that we wouldn't be together, so I was prepared for it and I just got on with life normally. Today though, knowing that I'd be seeing my baby tonight, I've been feeling so stupidly horny again and there's only been one thing on my mind - getting naked with my baby and getting shagged rotten (that's two things isn't it? But they both relate to the same thing - sex, so I guess it can be counted as one.)

I'm not joking, that's all that's been on my mind all day, along with tons of other dirty thoughts that I'm not going to share with you, I'll save them for later when I'm with my baby! It's that bad, I'm sure I need therapy, I'm sure I've got some kind of sex addiction - he's called my boyfriend, dear me he makes me so horny; but joking aside it's crazy. I mean I've never had so much sex in my life than I have with my baby - night after night after night but the more I get the more I seem to want. When I was single I sometimes used to survive for weeks without sex if I was working without a weekend off or I couldn't arrange a hook up on the internet and I wasn't as horny as I am now, when I literally get laid to my hearts content.

I guess it's because I adore my boyfriend - I love him to bits, I lust for him with a passion because he turns me on so much and we have the most heavenly sex life - he does things to me and makes me feel things that I don't even begin to understand; I've never had so much pleasure through sex in my life than with my baby. But still that doesn't explain why all I've wanted to do of late is to be treated like a whore and get shagged hard, rough and dirty; for some reason it just blows my mind to bits at the moment. There's no explanation for that, we've not been watching porn or anything like that where such thoughts may have emanated, it's just, I honestly don't know. Not that I complain nor does it worry me and nor does my baby complain - he's more than qualified and equipped to carry out the job with aplomb.

Perhaps we're just lucky, at the end of the day that's probably all it is; I mean we've been together almost a year now officially as boyfriends and we still lust and love each other so much that it makes us feel like this. I guess you could search for a lifetime and never find that special someone who fulfils all the ideals you hold as an individual; and maybe that's why people of all sexualities shag around so much? It's so easy to call them sluts, I've been called it on more than one occasion - sometimes in jest and sometimes not; but maybe they're just still searching for that special someone. My baby and I didn't fall on our feet overnight; and truth be told we both slept around and I certainly wasn't looking for a boyfriend but it just kind of happened, something clicked into place and we jumped off the merry go round. I thought I was happy on the merry go round, I was wrong..............