El amor no tiene ningún lenguaje

I'm so relaxed Blogger friends, you wouldn't believe how relaxed a guy could be, seriously - I'm so relaxed I'm almost horizontal; and you may all be thinking that's not unusual to find me in the horizontal position, but even out of the bedroom, even walking around and even at work when I'm away from my baby I'm almost horizontal. I don't recall any other time when I've been this relaxed and comfortable, it is just the most beautiful frame of being to find myself in; well both of us really because when I'm in such a state it has a positive effect on my baby and our relationship. I know, even without my baby saying, that I'm good to be around during such times, it's me at my very best and without anything to bother or upset me, well the light comes shining through into my life but more importantly it shines through onto my baby. Times like these are my thank you, I love you message to him - spoken in silence because no words are needed, he only has to be around me to know; and he knows...................

He knows but won't admit that I am what I am at this moment in time because of him, because of the positive input he has given my life, because of the love, the care and the tenderness he has given me; my life has been enriched by his presence within it. And yes, I know it takes two; and yes, I wouldn't have grown without some effort and trust on my behalf but first of all you have to find a boyfriend who's willing to invest the time and the effort. I've never said I was the easiest person in the world to get on with and get to know personally because that would have been a lie so it makes it all the more remarkable. I don't know and I don't care to analyse the situation because it doesn't matter; all that matters is the here and now, and right now I, sorry we, find ourselves in such a beautiful position - it's like the safest, most comfortable place you could imagine. My baby's reminding me that I've given so much to his life too, that it's not just a one-way road, and I know that to be true but without his initial time and patience none of this would have happened - that's all I'm trying to say, is that okay babes? Yes, that's okay boys and girls, trust me it's okay..........

I tell you all this not only because I want to and because my defences are down but because it's a perfect reflection of our weekend. We went out for a meal on Saturday night to the gay village, a kind of birthday/valentines joint celebration and it was just so blissful and so romantic. There were no drunken over the top antics to be found, we were impeccably well behaved - just my baby and I enjoying each others company, fine food, a few drinks and the nighttime; that was it, the most important thing was being together, nothing more. We didn't even party afterwards, we just stayed in the bar and relaxed together, we went home relatively sober and at a decent time. I bought my baby a rose on the way back home, a street vendor was selling them and I couldn't help myself; my baby took it to work today and placed it on his desk so it would remind him of me - that's just a beautiful sentiment. Sunday I returned from work to find my baby cooking a meal for us, a valentines meal; and despite having to spend our first Valentines Day apart, the nighttime more than made up for it. Once again it was just about us - a night filled with hushed tones, kisses and cuddles - the sweetest, most heartfelt things are often said in hushed tones, if they need to be said at all because love has no language. Te quiero novio xoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxox.