This years love

Good evening boys and girls, I trust you're all happy, well and continuing to enjoy the festive season? Why do people think that Christmas is over? Because it's not, it's still Christmas; admittedly it doesn't really feel like it - once you get past Boxing Day it does just feel like another day, particularly so if you're working. Talking of which is anyone still off work for Christmas? You're real lucky if you are, my baby and I were not so lucky and well, work has kept us apart the last two nights - early starts and late finishes are no good for our love life! Not that I complain, I mean we've been lucky in many respects for the past couple of weeks, we've seen each other lots, almost every night in fact and it's been great. A couple of nights apart won't dampen our spirits any, quite the opposite I imagine, not that we need any inspiration to light our fires, far from it..........

So I've not seen my baby since he left for work Tuesday morning and I won't see him again until tomorrow evening when we both finish work. If you need a reminder tomorrow being New Years Eve, it's scary isn't it? Not New Years Eve, we're both looking forward to it, to going out to the gay village partying and to just being together to see 2010 dawn upon us; oh my gosh a new decade, it's just hit me now. I get quite emotional when I think about, I am now, to think back from last year to this one; how times have changed, how I've changed - from being single, stuck in the closet and somewhat uneasy with my sexuality. And now, well I'm everything I wasn't - openly gay, happy, confident and no longer single, I'm in love with the most beautiful guy, my boyfriend; he has to take a great deal of credit for the change in me. I was going to say the year has just flown by but when I really think back it's been a long and winding to get me to this stage; the change has been momentous and it hasn't been without it's moments. But the good times most definitely outweigh the bad times and my baby he's just held my hand every step of the way; even during the times when I know I didn't really deserve his love he was there for me. Along the way I've learned a great deal about myself and how to treat others; and along the way I've learned to open up and let my baby into my heart and my soul; it made me uneasy at first to be so open and honest with all of my thoughts and all of my life. I'm not a brave person in respect of my private life but I'm so glad that I tried and so glad that I was encouraged to do so; I guess if I wasn't I wouldn't be writing this, I wouldn't be as happy and I wouldn't be so looking forward to tomorrow night. And I know I give too much attention to our sex life, way too much and you may tire of reading such intimate detail; but it's way more than that, it's posts like these that really tell it how it is.........

This is going to sound dumb, but still, it's just so apt that we'll be together to see in the New Year, that we'll be having fun drinking, dancing and partying from one decade into another. I think it will also help that we've not seen each other for a couple of nights, we don't take each other for granted but it just makes us realise even more what we've got; I wouldn't want to be anywhere else - hand on heart, nowhere else. All this and then a whole lot more condensed into one night - for those that don't know my baby or I personally some of the story's within the archive, you'll see how we've grown; but of course there's much more to the story than that, those are just the excerpts I decided to share. The rest of it, well, it's in our eyes - how I love staring into my baby's eyes; it's in our words - those sweet little nothings whispered to one another, the silly text messages and the late night phone calls; but most importantly it's in our hearts - you can't lie to your heart, it tells it's own story and it tells the truth regardlessly.

I may not get the chance to blog again this year, so we'll see you all safely on the other side of 2009; wishing you all a very happy 2010 - be safe and have fun whatever you find yourself doing. Lots of love xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx.

The song's for my baby and I - I hope this years love lasts and lasts. Thanks for everything, I love you to bits xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox.