First

Today has been a top day blogger friends, a really wonderful and super day; of course it started off with my baby, waking up with him lay next to me in bed is the perfect start to any day - and even being the bad morning person I am I can still appreciate the fact! Work was boring, it has been for a while, I'm expecting it to have picked by now with Christmas around the corner but so far, barring Saturdays it's been kind of dull. Regardless of the dullness it was punctuated by moments of pure beauty that lifted the day; I started it off.................

I sent a text to my baby at 8 o'clock this morning - you've no need to know the content but it was just so twee, I don't know I was just feeling in love and thinking of him. Like me, my baby can't have his mobile phone on whilst at work so it was just sent as a surprise for him during his break; it cheers the world up doing stuff like that. For the remainder of the day our breaks were spent checking our phones, reading the texts from each other and replying to them; I felt like a child again rushing into the office during my breaks to get my phone - it was something to look forward to, it broke the monotony of the day and made me smile. To be honest it felt like we'd just fallen in love, you know when you first start going steady with a new guy (or girl to keep the straight guys and lesbian readers happy!) and you send each other silly texts that don't really say anything other than how you feel about them? That was it, it's a beautiful feeling, I think it says a great deal about us that we still find joy and comfort in doing such after all the months we've been together; I hope we never lose sight of the small things like this...............

Hence, I spent most of the day thinking about my baby, I was so looking to finishing work this evening - to get home and wait for my baby to return from work. I started cooking tea, how I love cooking for my baby - a nice warm house, music on the stereo whilst keeping myself busy in the kitchen; I'm not the best cook in the world and when I'm on my own cooking is nothing but a chore. But to cook for the both of us, knowing that my baby will return from work to a cooked meal - it just gives me so much joy and pleasure; I lose myself in the process of cooking for us, it's a projection of my love for him. Anyway it was a top tea, I made steak sandwiches with a twist; steak on a ciabatta roll with lettuce, tomatoes, breaded onion rings and garlic mayonnaise with a side of chips. It was awesome and that's not just me saying it, we could hardly close the ciabatta roll it was that packed; and the taste, oh my gosh - I've made similar in the past but to add the cooked onion rings just blew it out of the stratosphere. To see my baby wolfing it down and enjoying it so much makes the effort worthwhile; and he's so complimentary and appreciative too, he says the most beautiful things, he's so sweet and thoughtful.

I got my first Christmas card this evening too, my baby walked on in through the door with one hand behind his back; he began teasing me asking me if I wanted a surprise and each time I tried to peek behind his back to see what he was holding he'd move his body so I couldn't see. I had to give him a kiss and a cuddle before he'd show me what it was, which was no hardship at all; in fact it was so enjoyable that I didn't want to stop kissing and cuddling him. It's the most beautiful card, seriously, and I'm not just saying that; well I couldn't say anything at the time anyway - it made me cry. Not only was it the card but also the words that my baby had written inside and this may sound dumb but in that moment something struck me cold. I always go on about how great it is to have a boyfriend, to love and to share life with because it is; but what hit me was the fact that I'm someones boyfriend too - I kind of saw our relationship from my baby's point of view. Like I said, it's kind of dumb - of course I'm my boyfriends boyfriend, there's no news there but still it hit me and the tears just welled up in my eyes and began rolling down my cheeks. I was just stood there looking at the card and reading the words over and over again; my baby said something to me, gave me a kiss and a big hug and it just made me worse - I was literally crying on his shoulder. We both know I'm sensitive and emotional so it wasn't a surprise to either of us to find me in tears but at least I was upset for the best possible reasons. I'm so glad that my first Christmas card was given to me by my baby, it just seems so apt and it's got pride of place on the mantlepiece - it really is beautiful just like him.

Merry Christmas boyfriend - I love you too, I love you so much; this songs for you I know it's one of your favourite Christmas songs xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox.