Whoever we are

I love my baby, I don't know it just hit home again this evening, it struck me real good right in the heart. We were talking about today, about our lunchtime rendezvous and we both agreed it was magical; it's the first time I've ever gone to meet my baby from work, it was just so utterly romantic. Just to see him walking across the road towards me with a smile that lights up the World - it really did make my heart skip a beat. My baby said I made it his best day at work ever - which is just the kindest and the sweetest thing to say; it made me very emotional when he told me.

We've also talked about when we were cuddled up together underneath his umbrella; and what I didn't tell you in my earlier post, for a while my baby put his hand on my bum whilst we were walking. Not in a groping, sexual way but in a caring, togetherness kind of way; it was a beautiful feeling, a feeling I love. I adore being the effeminate, passive guy in our relationship; it's not a choice anyway, I always have been that way inclined and not just in a sexual tone. It's just within my nature and my baby, unlike a great deal of other guys, he just takes such good care of me, he puts me so at ease with myself and with him my true nature just shines through. It's such a beautiful place to find myself in - I've been corrected, it's such a beautiful place to find ourselves in; it is, it truly is - bless you babes.

As you all know I get hurt at the drop of a hat, as a result I find it very difficult to open up my heart and my soul to others; I just struggle to convey my true emotions, I guess because I am very emotional. It takes a great deal of love, trust and nurturing to even begin to allow my true self through; and it just says everything you ever wanted to know about how I feel for my boyfriend. I've never allowed myself to be so true as I am with him and it wasn't a struggle to do it, it came about so easily and pretty much unnoticed; I have no secrets with my baby because I know no fear when I'm with him.

All in that moment earlier today - my baby walking through the crowded streets of Manchester with his hand on my bum; it made me feel loved, it was the perfect reflection of our relationship, of us and of the time we've spent together. Whoever my baby and I are in peoples eyes and whatever we are in peoples minds, we cannot change that, we wouldn't know where to begin anyway; all we can hope for is that they don't mean us any harm. But we know what we are, we are nothing more than two ordinary guys, very fortunate guys but ordinary all the same; we found each other and somehow, somewhere love followed us..............