Astronaut

I just needed some time out - time out from work and time spent with my baby; both of these things have helped ease my mind. Sometimes I think I work too much, three or so weeks on the bounce is a great deal particularly so if there are people on my case, prying into my personal life and trying their very best to upset me. This time around it worked, this time they won, I couldn't see the light at the end of the tunnel and it dragged me down; how I needed this weekend off, it was almost perfect timing.

I say almost perfect timing because my baby is working today but I don't complain, how could I after my marathon work stint? At times it keeps us apart, but mostly we work around it and see each other through the night if nothing else but it just seems like it's been a real long time since we've had the weekend off together - I love spending time with my baby he makes me smile and makes me feel loved; and I love him back in bucket loads. I guess there's a lot of guys who wouldn't appreciate such adoration but I can't help it, if a guy steals my heart I want to show how much they mean to me; and you may call it real girly stuff like holding hands, cuddling and kissing but that's just me.

Last night saw us together on the sofa, I was lay in my baby's arms and he was cuddling me real close to his chest; I just felt so warm, so safe and so secure for the first time in the longest time. The television was on in the background but we weren't paying it any attention, I was looking up into my baby's eyes, watching them look back at me - the most honest eyes I've ever seen, they speak so much truth and hold so much love even when no words are spoken. In between kisses I spoke whatever was on my mind whilst my baby listened, his hand brushing my face and I felt weightless. All the crap that was dragging me down and making me upset just disappeared from my shoulders; I was relaxed, carefree and smiling again. I asked my baby to come close whilst I whispered something into his ear, it made him smile and he cuddled me so tight whilst kissing me. I never want him to let go..............