Safety

I'm just so glad my boyfriend is with me tonight, more so than ever. Since late afternoon, once all the remnants of things that needed to be done were done and I had some time on my hands the thought of returning to work tomorrow started playing on my mind. As always after a week or so away from work it's something that I'm not looking forward to - the thought of getting up early, of going back into the daily routine and of having my days taken from me is far from pleasant. Which is kind of dumb to be honest because without it I wouldn't be able to go on holiday, have money to spend nor be able to afford to go out with my beautiful baby on our weekends off. I also appreciate the fact that once I'm in work and back into the swing of things I'll be fine and after a couple of hours it'll feel just like normal again. But still the negative thoughts were starting to cloud my judgement and if I'd have been on my own tonight they may well have multiplied.

Thankfully my boyfriend is taking my mind off such thoughts just by being here with me, by being able to talk to him, to hear his voice and see his smile makes all the difference. He's easing me gently into a night in which I may have otherwise struggled; I'm going to snuggle up close to him on the sofa, feel his arms around me, his body warming mine and his kiss upon my lips. It's the safest place I know.........