Light my way

It's amazing what people can do, I mean there's my last post which is at one end of the spectrum and at the other end, well there's another person who can remind me without even speaking that all the crap is worth it because...............

I've not seen him since Monday, that's two whole days and I've missed him; and I do miss him more when I find myself struggling with life. Thankfully it doesn't happen very often these days - it is a rarity but I do feel guilty to feel needy of him during such times; they're my problems after all and I don't want to burden him with such. But he helps, he wants to help and he does help; he encourages me to share the bad times or thoughts, especially when I do struggle to ask for help. He always reminds me that he's here to share the good and the bad times; and he always makes sense, I don't know why or how but he does. He just makes everything better, he makes the world seem like a brighter place and he makes my worries disappear.

I've spoken to him lots on the phone and he helped to ease my mind but to see him tonight, in person, just put a big smile back upon my face. I guess just seeing his familiar face, his smile and his eyes; puts me instantly at ease, I know I'm safe from harm in his arms and I know his touch and his kiss has the power to heal. I feel like a different person when he's with me and just doing the simple things with him makes a whole world of difference; we were sat at the kitchen table having tea tonight and it hit me out of nowhere - all my worries had disappeared, it was beautiful.

We've been talking, cuddling and kissing; how I love just sitting together holding him close on the sofa and talking without thinking - just saying whatever's on my mind. I started my Christmas shopping today, it was just magical, it filled my heart with warmth; he asked to see what I'd bought but I couldn't show him - he smiled and kissed me.

He's my boyfriend and I love him to bits xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox.