Doormat

Um, hello there Blogger World and welcome back - if there's anyone still reading this; and no there wasn't a problem with my account or blog page or anything like that. It was much more simpler than that and nothing technical, there was a problem with me and I kind of password protected my blog. Well, there's no kind of about it - I did indeed password protect my blog so only invited readers could view it, apologies if you've been experiencing difficulties trying to access it during the last 24 hours.

I suffered a knee jerk reaction to something someone said - it offended me and I think this time I had every right to be offended. I appreciate I'm a sensitive soul but sometimes some people just overstep the mark of what I'm comfortable with, you know? And I do try to find the humour in their remarks and I do try and remember that they probably don't mean to offend but this time it was real difficult; it was too difficult for me to bear. I just don't understand why my life attracts so much attention, so much subjection and, unfortunately at times, so much ridicule; no one deserves to be treated like that ever. Particularly when it also involves my sexuality but more pointedly my boyfriend; and then people wonder why I'm so protective of him. Would you be happy if you're boyfriend/girlfriend/husband/wife was subjected to such? It doesn't need an answer does it - I'll protect my baby from any harm in anyway I possibly can; if people do not understand that then, well, I honestly do not know...........

It's just my life when all is said and done, it's no different to anyone else's, I'm not special and neither is my life. I don't even try and pretend that it is; all I try to do is make the best of what I've got and somewhere along the way I decided to document parts of it on here. I'm not comfortable when the spotlight is turned incessantly upon me and I thought that this blog wasn't helping matters so that's why I did what I did. Whether it was a good way of dealing with the issue is open to interpretation but it was my decision and it felt right to me at the time. Especially when an innocent party, a guy, my boyfriend, who I love to bits was been dragged into the equation; that's so far off limits it doesn't even register. What part must either of us play to make everyone happy all the time?

But I'm back, treading gingerly, but back all the same; please don't treat me like a doormat..........