A beauty that could never be understood

The weekend nights with my baby and the spirit of the time we spent together remained real evident with me today. I was just so relaxed and carefree at work today, just surrounded by a calmness and a happiness that was beautiful; it was more than memories, it felt like my baby was with me, holding me in his arms, keeping me safe and warm.

It was reflected in the weather - what a wonderfully beautiful day it was in Stockport today. The early morning was cold and crisp before the sun rose over the horizon and filled a flawlessly blue sky; I kid you not when I say the sky was jewel like in its appearance. The sun shone brightly and warmed the day; it was by no means sultry weather but it was a perfect Autumnal day and it filled my heart and soul with joy.

The day lasted so long too, dusk didn't descend until around 6.30 this evening, it surprised me by the fact it was still visibly light at that time, it felt like a gift from some higher plane. In fact I think dusk forgot to show this evening, I mean by 7.00 it was dark - within 30 minutes the day closed off completely; I found it all wondrous, nature, it's mystery, wildness and unpredictability just blows me away. It was also the first time I've walked home from work in the dark this Autumn and it hit me how such a change can have such a subtle effect on everything else that surrounds me. I found the streets and the roads empty, that's what struck me first, it was odd; followed by the quietness and stillness of the evening, more so than the fact that the streets and roads were empty. The night itself just felt so still, like the world had stopped turning and was taking a rest, I hope that makes sense to you because it was exactly what it was like; it was wonderful to walk through it, to be a part of it and to sense it. My boyfriend and Rach have often said that I'm sensitive, not in an easily hurt and offended kind of way because we all know that to be true, even me! But in a sensory kind of way, to be able to pick up these vibes and feelings around me, I used to laugh at the idea but nowadays I'm not sure, maybe they're right; I mean my boyfriend is rarely wrong anyway..........

Whatever it may or may not be there's no doubt today has been life affirming, we are all blessed to be able to live through days like these, I know that to be the truth. The heavens remained wide open above us today, if you looked up you'd have seen a beauty that could never be understood.