I love you

Today, I just found myself out of sorts; not feeling sad nor down or anything like that - just kind of jaded. For a start I know I'm tired - I'm into my third week of work without a day off and it starts to tell after a while, more mentally than physically; it causes my sense of humour to fade and my sensitivity to rise. For me that's not a good position to be in. Thankfully, I'm off this weekend so I'll have some respite and recovery time but again that's being playing on my mind too.

You see my boyfriend was off last weekend and I wasn't; now I'm off this weekend and my boyfriend is working Saturday. Admittedly it won't spoil our weekend a great deal but being the first one I've had off in weeks it would have been nice to be together throughout. It just seems there are forces fighting against us at the moment, keeping us apart and keeping us from just enjoying some quality time together. It's a silly train of thought I know it's just work getting in the way - a necessary evil unfortunately, but still it seems we're just grabbing at opportunities to see each other lately. Add on the fact that today and for the majority of the week I'm working late, it just kind of compounds the situation even further.

What I really needed was some escape from my thoughts but that didn't materialise either. Work was a complete washout, just a day of absolute nothingness - no fun to be had or any excitement to be gained. There was nothing to occupy my mind and for the first time in a long time I found myself bored - it's a rarity but it happened. The whole day and everything within it was just out of character; well mostly...........

I've just phoned my sweetheart up for no other reason than to say I love you; it just needed to be said and I felt like doing it. Three simple words, oh so true; it made my day.............