Comfort

We were going to go out tonight, nothing major, just for a few beers in Stockport. However, we got comfortable together on the sofa and time and any thoughts of going out just dissipated; I'm not disappointed, in fact I wouldn't want to be anywhere else. You may view the situation as boring if you so wish - a Saturday night and two loved up boyfriends preferring to stay in rather then heading out; I call it perfection.

We've just watched "The Sweet Hereafter" on dvd, it's a beautiful movie in every aspect - the story line, the photography and the atmosphere it portrays. I've seen it before whereas my boyfriend hasn't, it was my recommendation and I was somewhat nervous with the choice because it's fundamentally a character study. It's emotiveness is born solely through the characters and the story; there's no special effects nor action sequences, it's just shot through with the melancholy of ordinary lives coping with an extraordinary set of circumstances. I love the film and others like it; and I love watching them at this time of year - the dark, chilly nights of Autumn and Winter. I think these seasons of the year do bring out a certain melancholy within me and my mind always turns to these kind of movies as a result; they just seem so much more real. To be honest I didn't think my boyfriend would appreciate it - it's an acquired taste, but............

We were lay together on the sofa and my boyfriend was cuddling me close in his arms - my favourite position in the world; I always feel so warm, so safe, so secure, so happy and so loved when I'm wrapped in my baby's arms. The lights in the lounge were off and save for the light from the television and a candle we were in darkness - it was bliss, it was a perfect scenario for the movie. We just lay there and watched the movie slowly unravel; we didn't speak a great deal, I'd occasionally glance up towards my boyfriend, smile and give him a kiss; he'd pull me in closer to his body, hold me real tight and kiss me back. As usual the movie made me cry, I try my best not to but I can't help it, besides I had a helping hand to wipe away my tears and extra cuddles and kisses to stop them.

As the movie concluded I waited for my boyfriends reaction - there was no reaction forthcoming, only silence. I feared the movie may have bored him and he'd fallen to sleep; I turned my head and looked upwards towards him to find him looking straight back at me, smiling. That was beautiful, I would never have watched something like that if it wasn't for you, thank you he said before leaning towards me and kissing me.

Now were sat together sipping brandy and listening to Richmond Fontaine live at the Doug Fir Lounge - quite a beautiful album that's steeped in the same kind of melancholic tones as the movie. I don't know but it just seemed like the perfect music to compliment the movie and the night as a whole. And this post seems like a cop out - I shouldn't be blogging, all my attention should be on the guy sat beside me, and it will be soon; I just needed to record the moment - it's beautiful, innocent and heartfelt just like my boyfriend.

I needed this tonight, after the crap I was subjected to yesterday I needed it more than ever. A low key night, snuggled up close to the guy I love, whilst watching a movie of pure human emotion. There's comfort to be found within the simplest of things..............