Coughs & sneezes......

........ spread diseases, so the old saying goes, unfortunately it's true boys and girls. I've been suffering from a cold since Thursday, it's laid me low, it's made me a tad grumpy and uncommunicative - when I'm feeling under the weather I always retract back into my shell. I don't like being ill nor not feeling 100%, it's not me, it taxes my energy and my brain - it just drains me. So I've just been stumbling through my work days as best as I can; clock watching until home time and trying to summon the energy to see me through, for the most part it's worked although there were times over the past couple of days when I did feel like death warmed up. But I made it through, got home, did as little as possible and went to bed early and alone. Since this afternoon I've been feeling a little better and I hope the worst is over and I make a speedy recovery from hereon in, I'm sure I will.

In case you've not noticed it's the weekend, Saturday night to be exact and although I'm working this weekend I normally have company through the evening and night in the form of my boyfriend. Tonight I find myself alone because it appears when we last saw each other on Wednesday night we shared more than just our love and passion for one another. My boyfriend is also suffering from a cold and it's laid him out, he's home alone too. His cold manifested itself on Friday and whilst speaking to him a couple of times since then on the telephone, he does sound ill. Since we've been together I've never known him ill, it's a first for me and I don't like it; to be honest it kind of upset me some. I didn't cry or anything like that but not to hear him his normal, happy self was a new experience; an experience that I didn't like, that unsettled me; and I felt kind of hopeless too - here's me not feeling too good and I know my boyfriend is ill too but there's nothing I can do to help him. I'd love to go around and look after him, to nurse him back to health but whilst I'm ill and working too there's nothing I can do - it's frustrating. He'll survive and all but still I feel I should be doing something more, I don't know........

I feel guilty too because I know he caught the cold off me; I felt it coming on Wednesday night - it was there in the background and despite hoping for the best, hoping it was a false alarm, I was wrong. When I woke up on Thursday morning I knew I was going to suffer, unfortunately I wasn't going to suffer alone because I'd shared more than just my love. So I'm sorry babes and I hope you get better real quick; I don't like to hear you in such a state - it doesn't suit you. Besides I miss you xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox