Times two

Good evening Blogger world, I trust I find you all happy and well? It's been a while since I last posted and perhaps that's a good thing; you see I was going to post last night - for some reason I desperately missed my boyfriend last night. It's not like we had planned to meet and then something got in the way, I just got home from work and found myself at a real loose end, real tired and so desperately just wanted to fall asleep in my boyfriends arms. That's what the post that never got published was about and then some...............

I'd just about finished the post when girlfriend phoned - it was perfect timing; I told her about my fragile state and she just cheered me up and took my mind off it despite being ill herself. I felt better afterwards and so decided to not post; not that it was bad in anyway, it was just overly sentimental and such words are often best said personally to the intended recipient, which is what I did. I phoned my boyfriend up, which is something I don't like doing when I'm not of a happy disposition, I don't like to burden him - but I just needed to tell him that I was missing him and that I loved him.

You would have no idea how much steadiness and clarity he has brought to my life; the times when I would often get upset, not talk and just struggle ahead alone are fast disappearing. I think it's reflected within this blog, for any readers who have been with me a while it's clearly evident, I've not posted anything negative in the longest time. Partly because my boyfriend taught me it's not healthy nor does any good to post such thoughts on here; but mostly due to the fact that I rarely get upset nor think negatively these days - again this is due to my boyfriend. It's far better to talk such things through with someone - I wouldn't have told girlfriend of my sorry state last night if it wasn't for the things I've been taught.

Just to hear my boyfriends voice last night, to be told everything will be all right and not to worry put me instantly at ease; then to hear the words I'm glad you phoned, I love you and miss you too, well my emotions got the better of me - for the second time in a week the words spoken by my boyfriend made me cry................