A return to innocence

Good evening blogger world I hope I find you all happy, well and looking forward to the weekend? I hope you didn't miss me too much last night either? As my previous post suggested I spent last night at my boyfriends, who along with Rach looked after me so much, what a divine evening spent with wonderful people. I don't think I could ever capture such times with any amount of words because such moments, as those last night are indescribable - it would be an injustice to even attempt it, you just had to be there to appreciate it, but I'll give it a go............

So my boyfriend picked me up from my house and whisked me around to his flat whereupon our arrival I was met by Rach with the biggest smile, hug and kiss I've ever received from a member of the opposite sex! It was quite a greeting, I mean I know it had been a while since I last saw her but still - she proper loves gay-boys, not that I'm complaining and it was a precursor to the rest of the night.

Tea was awesome, just the best tea ever and it did beat my boyfriends bangers and mash, sorry babes xo. She cooked, and excuse me if my description is incorrect or vague, steak in a wholegrain mustard glaze - I kid you not it's the best steak dish I've ever eaten, period! Just the most tasty way to serve a steak, if that had been in a restaurant I'd have wanted to see the chef responsible and I'd have bought him/her a drink. But if that wasn't good enough it was served with home made chips - proper thick cut fresh chips and onion rings; if food was sex I'd have had multiple orgasms. My boyfriend was right, Rach is a wizard in the kitchen and then some - no wonder if we're not together he spends so much time with her, I don't blame him!

But it was more than the food, it was the whole affair that made it so spectacular. The lights dimmed, the curtains drawn, the rain falling onto the windows and three friends sat around the dining table - eating, drinking, talking, laughing and just enjoying each others company. That feeling of companionship and friendship is just incredibly heartening, it's so very simple but means much more than the sum of its' parts.

Afterwards we retired to the living room and whilst listening to background music we talked, laughed and drank some more - telling tales of life, love, crazy nights out and everything in between; and whereas straight people aren't normally too keen to hear the details of gay life, well it was nice just to be able to let it all go......... Perhaps it helped that we all fancied guys, I don't know, but it was a refreshing change. Thereafter we commenced a game of Uno and what a top game it is; I've never played it before but what fun and so addictive - all sat around the coffee table trying our best to outdo each other. If you're unfamiliar or you've never played the game before I urge you to try it but be warned, as I've mentioned it's so addictive and time just flies.

So I drank too much and stayed up way late for a work night but it was worth it, if we'd all been off today I think the night may have never ended and truth be told I didn't want it to end. I do not lie boys and girls when I say the room was filled with an aura of spiritual love, I could feel it heavy in the air, falling down from the ether, from some higher plane and I've only ever felt that feeling twice before in two distinctly different places. Maybe it's my sensitivity or something I don't know but it's the honest truth I can feel such emotions in the air and I did feel it last night, it's the most special feeling in the world but it didn't surprise me. I was just so at ease, comfortable, peaceful and happy with my surroundings last night, the most I've ever been in recent memory. It was like a refuge where I could just be myself, where those around me just loved me for what I am and would never judge, hurt or ridicule me.

It reminded me of childhood, of long summer days, of being loved without question, of a life without fear or trepidation - it was a return to innocence.............................