and then.......

......... I kissed him.

Which is nothing unusual boys and girls because he is my boyfriend after all, except I'm trying very subtly to denote a difference. Rach left us at late o'clock, we tidied up in a not-so-bothered kind of way before I took hold of my boyfriend pulled him close and kissed him. And we kissed, our hands explored, we kissed some more and I led him by the hand to the bedroom. As a by-thought aren't flats great places to live because everything is on one level and close by; there's no climbing stairs to get to the bedroom........

I don't know what was up with me last night, maybe it was that aura of spiritual love in the air, but I took the lead and the dominant role which is unusual. As you all know I'm normally submissive, it's my choice and my preference; I do switch occasionally but rarely out of choice and I often need to be coaxed into doing it. I just don't enjoy it as much, I guess I'm of a submissive nature and it shows even in my sexual preferences - it doesn't come natural to me. That said, I have switched more often of late with my boyfriend than at any other time, I feel more comfortable doing such with him because of the nature of our relationship and I appreciate it's good to spice things up some every now and then.

But still, last night I wasn't asked nor coaxed into it, I just sub-consciously took the lead without even thinking about it. I knew what I was doing but it just felt so natural and so enjoyable - it even took my boyfriend by surprise; as the proceedings gathered pace and it became clear what my intentions were he let out a surprised "oh". Without heading off into too much detail it was the best sex I've ever had whilst being on top - hand on heart just awesome; to feel myself become part of my boyfriend, to be in control and to be giving him so much pleasure - to see it in his eyes and hear it in his breath, oh my gosh. Now I understand implicitly why my boyfriend so loves being on top - I never used to but now I do. The orgasm that followed was just heavenly..................