Lucky

Good evening dear readers, if you've been keeping up with my posts then you'll realise it's been a rough old week; but as they say, good things come to those who wait - it's true. I could have cried tears of joy when I saw my boyfriend earlier this afternoon, it was just so wonderful to see him again; to see his smile, to hold him in my arms and to kiss him - it felt like I'd been waiting an eternity. I held onto him and did not want to let go; just to prove to myself that it was real and he wasn't going to be taken away from me. Oh gosh, that first kiss - to feel his lips pressed against mine made all the suffering and longing disappear in an instant. 

Which is kind of dumb admittedly, it's only been a week since we last saw each other and we've spoken most days in between. But still I think what made it so tough is the fact that there was no real circumstances keeping us apart barring my illness. He could have come round any night of the week there was nothing holding us back but the fear of spreading my illness. If, for example, one of us had been away on holiday or visiting friends then you realise there's nothing you can do about it and see the time through. But being just around the corner from one another yet feeling miles apart was just so frustrating. Never mind, it's over.......

Truth be told I'm still not 100% but I feel so much better now I'm with my boyfriend, he just brightens up my world so much, he brightens up my mood and makes the sun shine. We went shopping this afternoon for nothing in particular, it was wonderful to be back to normal again; spending time together, smiling, laughing and living life just for the sake of it. 

We were hoping to go out tonight into the big bad city but I don't think I could manage it so we bought some DVD's to watch instead. Again, it's kind of frustrating, our first weekend off together in three weeks and we'll be stuck inside. Regardless of all this nonsense I continue to count my blessings, I am sharing my time with a wonderful guy, I am very lucky.