Pick on girlfriend

Expecting friends to play by my own rules is a difficult ask, but I do expect them to do that, particularly very close friends. All the while I expect to be able to push the boundaries as far as I can and expect them to be able to take the joke. That's an impossible ask to be honest, if the roles were reversed I would take serious umbrage with the circumstance; I know because I've done it in the past and almost ruined friendships because of it.

But I am very lucky because two of my very best friends, my boyfriend and my girlfriend, do all of the above for me, even though expecting such is so very wrong of me. That said I know I've calmed down some with my boyfriend and it's rare I push the boundaries with him these days; he has been very good for me. We laugh and joke but he will always tell me if I'm overstepping the mark of decency and I will always respect such boundaries when they're pointed out to me. Furthermore, he never really says or does anything to offend me; which I guess is less than a miracle but more of an acute understanding of how I think and look at life. I think it probably comes with the time we spend together; and some trial and error in the early stages of our relationship. 

So I have my boyfriend to look after me in my free time when very little troubles me. However, I do at times struggle badly whilst at work, those I work with can be incredibly hurtful; and I have no boyfriend by my side to help me through. This is where girlfriend looks after me and it's probably fair to say that she has an even more difficult job on her hands than boyfriend. The pieces of my fragile nature are much more likely to need picking up and putting back together again at work. I find it very easy to get lost and very difficult to find my way back home. Most days, regardless of my mood, I need a safe haven and a friendly, caring face to help me through the day. It's a nice thought to know I have someone at work with whom I can talk to, share the silly little thoughts in my mind, who offers advice and support when needed, and makes me laugh and smile. 

That's my girlfriend and that's why I love her; besides she's the sexiest girlfriend in the world and no one can replace her. Which would make you think that I'd treasure her and never do her wrong; and for the most part I try my best to maintain such morals. But sometimes I fail, it's mostly in jest but all the same, you know? I'll take a joke or a set of circumstances too far and although she rarely takes offence I know it's not a true reflection of my feelings; and sometimes when I think about it, it hurts me even if it has not caused her offence. She means a lot to me, that's all and such feelings are quite easy to convey with my boyfriend for obvious reasons; but I guess it's more difficult to find a balance and an appropriate way to do that with my girlfriend.

Hence, this post tonight, which I've done pretty much for the sake of it; and not as an apology because I've upset her. Admittedly my boyfriend and I have posted some risqué comments over the past couple of nights but I think we kept them just on the right side of decency and they did not cause any offence; they certainly weren't meant to. I think it's nice to just pay someone a compliment every once in a while and give them a reminder of how much they mean, what difference they make and how much they're thought of and loved. 

Tonight, for all the right reasons, it's time to pick on girlfriend xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx