I am not

Frustration - it's like hitting my head against a brick wall and is immovable just the same. I'm still ill, I still feel like a bag of crap, I'm looking like a bag of crap, I still miss my boyfriend so much and my first weekend off for three weeks is fast approaching. The timing of this cold is impeccable.

So today has been total and utter shit for every imaginable reason; and I could go on for the rest of the night as to why. But to paraphrase the whole affair people think little more of me than some sort of side-show freak whose sole purpose in being put on this earth is to entertain them. 

I AM NOT A FREAK I AM NOT A FREAK I AM NOT A FREAK I AM NOT A FREAK I AM NOT A FREAK I AM NOT A FREAK I AM NOT A FREAK I AM NOT A FREAK I AM NOT A FREAK I AM NOT A FREAK I AM NOT A FREAK I AM NOT A FREAK I AM NOT A FREAK I AM NOT A FREAK I AM NOT A FREAK I AM NOT A FREAK.

I AM NOT SORRY IF I DISAPPOINT

♡♡ I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND ♡♡

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