Anticipation

I wasn't going to post tonight dear readers because I'm kind of tired; last night was a late night of blogging and comment posting with my boyfriend and girlfriend. It was great fun all the same and they both make me laugh so, even during the times I find myself away from them, they are still there in this virtual world. They both make me very happy and I hope we bring some cheer to anyone else who reads or stumbles across this blog. I think that's the revelation of this blog, it's become more than it should be, more than just an online diary of my thoughts and life. Instead I think it's turned into some kind of online community where we all can share thoughts, laughs and jokes. I like how it's turned out and I like people to take part in this thing that I do, I like the sharing and connections it brings. 

But that's me going off on a tangent and not why I chose to post tonight. I was sat outside at work this evening during my last break, smoking a cigarette, looking up at the blue sky and allowing my mind to drift. Thoughts turned to my boyfriend, wishing I could see him tonight, wishing I could hold him close to my body, feel his body heat against mine, feel his touch against my skin, his lips pressed against mine; and it made me quite horny. I knew that we were unable to see each other tonight due to work commitments, but it didn't matter; in fact I think it made the thoughts all the more desirable; does that make sense? Like when you know you can't possibly have something and it makes you yearn for it even more; and it wasn't like a tortuous feeling, it was quite the opposite - a kind of sweet, soulful feeling. The longing for him made me realise just how fortunate I am and how much he means to me; we've not spent a great deal of time together this past week, which is nothing unusual at times but still I do miss him when we don't see each other.

Which is a great thing to have in a relationship, well it works for us anyway. We've spoken about this in the past and we both are very happy with how things are, it suits us both down to the ground. For the most part we live our own lives apart going about our own respective day to day business; that said we speak, text or email most days. So when we do see each other be it for a couple of hours, a night or a weekend it's always fresh and exciting because we've usually not seen each other for a while; it stops things from becoming stale and boring. It stops us from getting under each others feet, negates any tension from the relationship and as a result we very rarely argue or fall out; which for anyone that knows me is nothing short of a miracle. 

I like being in an exclusive relationship; that's what boyfriends do. I like the times we spend together but I also like the times we spend apart; because that allows me to miss him, to think of him and to cherish the times we spend together even more. I guess today was all about anticipation rather then participation, it heightens the senses, allows such thoughts as those I've had today to surface and it will make the next time all the more special because of it.