Always on my mind

I've got something on my mind - a something I cannot get out of my mind. If I'm not talking about in person or writing about it on here I'm thinking about it most of the time. It's become an obsession, I think I'm suffering from obsessive compulsive disorder; not in a regular way but in a sex junkie kind of way. 

All this and I can't stop checking cute guys out and thinking what I'd like to do to them and with them. Now I could fully understand this if I wasn't getting any, that would be a fair reflection of my sexual frustration; but I am, I'm getting it on a very regular basis and it's other-worldly good, the best sex ever. Maybe that's the problem, because it's so good I want more and more, I want to have that feeling all the time. 

To further complicate matters although I do check out other guys and think horny thoughts I would never have sex with them should the opportunity arise. Because I am very lucky to have a gorgeous boyfriend who is better in every single way to the eye candy I look at, I have got a modicum of self-control in this respect. 

But still it surely does not excuse such behaviour and such thoughts? I mean it's taking over my life, it's with me every waking hour of every single day; perhaps I should seek some help here, get some therapy or something. I've tried thinking of Russian agricultural tractors, visiting the dentist and even Ian naked - the latter works admittedly for a short while, but I always return to the same thoughts eventually. 

And I appreciate I should not be complaining about it, I realise I am very fortunate and there are many people out there who would love to have this problem (sorry); and truth be told I'm not complaining. This post was just an excuse to talk about sex again, you see what I mean?