True colours

Okay, today I went to Superdrug and purchased some nail varnish, two bottles, two colours - black and cobalt blue; in the bottle they look like they go well together, I hope so. Thanks to Angharad for introducing me to the joys of nail varnish and also accompanying me to Superdrug today to offer advice.

Most of my friends and colleagues are still real messed up over this whole nail varnish business, this is a big time misunderstanding and I'm loving it. They do not understand why I want to wear it and I do not understand their crazy reaction to it. I just want to wear it because I think it suits me; because I want to and because it is a reflection of my inner self. 

I've cleaned the black varnish from the weekend off my little finger and thumbnail, so it's not like I'm still walking around work wearing it; even though I want to. I would love to paint even just my little fingernail again and leave it on all the time, but I'm not sure how it would go down with the Management, you know? I guess they could make a deal over it, even when I do not see any, perhaps I see things slightly differently or I'm somewhat more tolerant to these ideals. 

And I found it just such a liberating experience buying nail varnish too; I was not scared nor embarrassed by the occasion at all. It was enjoyable and I did not hide the fact that I was buying it for myself - my confidence is very high at the moment and I love myself. I guess I just want to express myself, I do not think this is a crime even if it does not fit into certain parameters, let us celebrate the contradiction and not hide the differences. My only minor niggling thought is the fact that it may be construed as me trying to be something I am not. I'm 37 next week and although I do not act my age maybe people will think that I'm trying to be young again and acting an age that I passed some time ago. Are such actions becoming of a man my age? Probably not, truth be told, but I do not really care!

At the moment I'm thinking of painting all my nails in alternate black and cobalt blue colours with an alternate sequence on each hand, that looks cool within my mind. How this looks when I actually paint them up ready for the weekend is another matter completely, but time will tell. Whatever happens and however it turns out the photos will be shared with you, blogger, watch this space.