Redemption

The last post crucifies me, it is the worst thing I have ever had to do on here. I am so not comfortable with it, I do not want to share personal emails like that with anyone. I share a whole load of stuff with you all on here blogger but it is all my thoughts, all my actions normally. Anything or anyone else is usually obscured and for good reason. 

But to share the personal thoughts of someone else, someone close to me, just tears me apart. It was not my idea, I hated it, I still do, but I think you have sacrificed a whole lot more in convincing me. 

I hope it helps and I do not deny the fact that you speak a great deal of truth and can keep a level head when I sometimes am unable to, for whatever reason. Redemption, if that's what the last post entailed, hurts so bad - enormously. But if that's what it takes then I will try and remain brave. But you have me fixed me and made me happy again. xxx