Game over

Today, it started off bad - real bad, some guy on my case at work as soon as he walked through the door. There is no need at all for such attitude and a negative perspective; and he thinks I'm a good friend! Man, he doesn't even know me. Anyway I thought it would blight my whole day - I could feel my happy disposition sliding away, but I fought it and won. People like that should never drag you down to their level and never, ever win. 

My happy disposition remained throughout the day and I was real cool around those colleagues I think something of. Which is where another problem started, but more on that shortly. I learned today that I'm a flirt, apparently - it came as a major surprise, I still can't figure it out actually. I don't think I set out to flirt if I do, perhaps I do it without knowing or acknowledging the fact; or maybe my actions have been misinterpreted some. But the friend who told me kind of knows me well so maybe I do. Admittedly for the most part I have been in a confident and extrovert mood lately which gives me little fear, so maybe I have been flirting some. Anyway, it doesn't worry me in the least, people can take me or leave me as they find me; this is me I am not afraid of myself. 

The problem today arose through my happy, confident and extrovert disposition. There is a mega hint posted within the archive about the identity of the colleague I dreamt of the longest time ago; today I let it slip. It's game over readers, his identity will be known for sure by anyone with the faintest musical knowledge and an eye for detail (pun intended). I said I will never speak his name and I have kept my end of the bargain to that extent but it is just so obvious now; truth be told all of you who know me well guessed it correctly anyway. I now know I am not as enigmatic as I thought, well not since I began to tell the truth anyway. 

I think it's time anyway to draw closure on this matter, it has been going on the longest time and a week has never passed without someone enquiring about it. I did not realise it would gain so much exposure and at times it did kind of drag me down; and I was hard on myself and dragged someone special into it too. There was no need for any of it admittedly - all the parody and humour, but it was just a bit of fun taken too far. I appreciate it's my blog and I may write what I wish on here and if people read it and get offended so be it; they should not visit it again. But I also appreciate the fact that I should treat people within my life the way I want to be treated by them; and as I have said before I do need to learn restraint. 

Regardless of my or any other peoples thoughts on the matter it was just a dream, nothing more nothing less, let's get over it and move on. If someone wants to carry on and continue to make a big deal out of it then carry on - the best of luck to you. But I have learned from my mistakes, well kind of.