Today I love everyone

I approached today in a strange but good manner; after the recent run of indifferent days I consciously decided to really try and be open and approachable with my friends and colleagues, to not judge nor cast aspersions, even in jest; and not to disappear into myself when I felt it necessary.

I'm certain it helped turn the day into a real good, happy and smiley one. I enjoyed myself today, my mood and spirit lifted with the ticking of the clock, it was a day I did not want to end. I started off badly, truth be told, making a joke out of Derek W and his worries over shift changes and his need to leave should it occur - but I apologised immediately. After that I went from strength to strength; living out my vision and even attempting to correct others along the way when they strayed. 

I did not even let Mary from Zumo blight my day or mood when she continued to cast me as some man-slut. Although to be honest it's a reoccurring theme and I don't mind it, in fact I always do see the funny side regardless of my mood. Mary doesn't mean any harm and I know that and she does make me laugh; and perhaps most importantly, makes me laugh at myself.

Perhaps I was rewarded by my efforts because I got on real well with Mat today. I like Mat, although not in that respect, he's a good guy but we have been kind of play-arguing with one another of late. Nothing bad but he kind of winds me up and I fall for the bait and things are said that needn't be; and I do the same to him too, being honest. At times, although it is only daft and childish, it does upset me some, I consider him a good friend and I don't like to go through with the petty, needless stuff. 

Today, we had a good talk about things and I was open and honest towards him. Mat is real easy to talk to, he's my soundboard in some respects, I do not feel threatened by him even though he can somewhat push the boundaries of what I find comfortable speaking about - but it is what I need to open up. I like talking to him, clearing my mind and soul of the clutter that accumulates. He's a human version of this blog. I don't think you find people like that often, I certainly don't anyway; it's good to make connections, to communicate openly and without fear. (Which makes a mockery of the entry I wrote earlier in the week. Yes, I am ashamed and sorry; but that's my worrisome mind at times.)

Upon leaving work I thanked everyone for being part of such a good day. Today I am glad to be alive, I am thankful for the friends I have in my life. I hope I can approach every day like this one and just enjoy it for what it is. 

I love you all, thank you.